Loss of Perspective

Have we lost all perspective of God? I was reminded the morning by a father-like figure. That just maybe perhaps we have lost perspective on God. Blaming God for everything that doesn't neccessarily go our way. We ask ourselves, " How can a God who loves us do such a thing to us?" It is not that he doesn't love us. In my opinion, I think maybe he is trying to tell us something. We just happen to take it out of context. It is too easy to become cynical about any one thing. But should constantly be that way. I'm afraid I do not think we should. You should instead become content in a sense. You cannot become content with God. That is not the purpose. Are we supposed we content with the church or God? According to a certain somebody, you know who you are, the church should be a place where you come to worship. Not a place where you are comfortable. I may have said that wrong. So then again if you are not coming to church to worship and you are not content with just being comfortable. Then why do you continue to keep coming if you know that it is not the right timing in your life. Stop putting yourself through the agony and the pain. Personally right know in my life. I would not be at the church. In my heart I know I need to be there. I know this because my life is not where it needs to be spiritually. I have been working on that constantly. But I know it is not right, yet I occasiionally still blame God on my misfortune and judgement. It is constantly a blaming game on god for everything I don't do right or for something I don't think is fair. Life was not meant to be easy, as I am learning the very difficult way. I thank God everyday for the friendships I have or don't have. For the people I know I can trust from day to day, from conversation to conversation. So again my question to you is, "How do we gain back perspective of God?"
Thanks guys for reading.

I'M MAD

Who is God? Is He understandable all the time? At times I'm not sure I understand why he allows certain situations to happen. Can I get over the anger to learn about God? It simply is the truth that I don't know who God is anymore. I still don't see how people say that their God is guarding them. When I have yet to see him gurading me and my family. I have lost all belief of God at this point in my life. Or maybe it was that maybe I never quite grasped the full understanding of God himself. How restore your faith in him if it seems that you have lost it? I have much gain with god in my life. But if I dont trust and believe in him there is no hope for me. What does He have in store for me? Am I to be a subconconscious paranoid? SHould I worry about stupid things? Should I angry at the church for silly things? Should I be angry all the time? Oh here's another question, should I be angry at myself all the time for my very unsuccessful life? It is truly my choice what happens to me in very uneventful so called life of mine.
Life is so short and yet we/I try so hard to be happy that I believe we just just make ourselves unhappy. Trying to be happy is just part of life. Happiness is overratted. (For me anyways) Seriously, why be happy. According to the people I work with, I am so unforgivingly unhappy, mad at everyone. Truly I am not. I seem to repeat myself over and over again. Why is that? Why can't people just listen to me and understand the words coming out of my poor pathetic mouth. Harsh words words I know. If you had as horrible of a day at work as I did. You too would be harsh. How can someone know me for so little of a time. Put words into my mouth. Rude. But maybe I'm rude. So my question now is, why should I care what God has in store me? Why should I make an effort to succeed? How do I not know that maybe my life will be cut short? Do I want it to be cut short? You answer that for me. Maybe the answer is yes and maybe it is no. Who knows. But for now maybe I should be content with the life that has been presented to me. Just be happy with the way things are playing out. Be happy with the stinky job. Be grateful that I love a God even though I'm mad at him for now. I can safely say, I don't understand the god I serve. Who does?
Please decipher this very rare very destructive view of God and life in itself.

The Next One!

So I read everyone elses' blog and I feel rather shallow. Like I don't have a brain sometimes or sometimes I feel undereduacted. Wait.....I am undereducated. But how can any one person judge themselves in such a way that is so degrading. How can anyone just not believe in themselves that they have to judge themselves on someone that is just two years older or someone that is fourteen years older than older than I.
I still have hope. I still have a chance of a bright future. Maybe not one in the near future. Maybe I just need to trust in God that He will chow me the way to future. Show me that I am bright and that I am smart. That I need not to judge myself unto others. John 7:24 simply puts it. "STOP judging by mere appearances, and MAKE a sound judgement." The Message, which some people don't necessarily like says, " Don't be nitpickers'; use your head-and heart!- to discern what is right, to test what is authentically right." Nonetheless, don't be picky about your education, looks, discernment. Rather do what is right.

Maybe I shall be quiet now. Goodnight, my friends!