Books

I hate reading just to let you all know. But this book we are doing for sunday nights, I think is an exception. So far it has been an exception because I cant seem to put it down it is such an interesting book. In a good way interesting. It has been so good I cant even remember what it is about. So to whomever suggested this book, next time you suggest a book make sure it is even smaller so my mind can undrestand it. That is it for now. Keep in touch bye now.

Dogs Suck

So what a random topic well tonight I was over at a friends house. The unthinkable happened. Her dog actually chewed up my phone. I was not a happy camper. I was quite angry. But then you ask why would you leave a phone in a dogs reach. Only an idiot. Well I guess that would be me. So anyways lesson learned here for anyone who has dogs. They eat everything, pick up your junk. Enough with dogs, they make me want to hate them which I don't. They really are adorable if you get the right breed. If you get a hound dog they really like phones I wouldn't suggest them. As for the rest of them, I guess they are okay.
So I thought about going back to school this summer. Well I'm not so sure about it anymore. I'm not sure I want to go back ever. Just the kind of downhill slump I'm in right now. No parents to help me out financially with school. No my parents just think they're cool but I hate to break it to them they really do suck ass. They think they have provided for me, they just clothed and housed me. They think they educated me, nope my teachers did. They think the world of me, I don't believe them for one minute. Well I guess you can say I officially hate my parents for the life they gave me. Although it was a pretty good one, I guess. I was raised in a christian home. Went to church every freaking Sunday. Man I got tired of that. Supposedly accepted Christ when I was eight woohoo. I don't think I did. SO pray for me on that one. In fact pray for me alto gether. I love you people of the world. Keep in touch, my life is a down hill spiral right now.

Trapped Inside Your Own Body

Have you ever felt like no one cared about you? Maybe you are not in the same mental and emotional state as I am but maybe you have been in the past. If you have ever been so depressed that you want every one around to just kill then you for sure to get some professional help. Maybe you already are. I don't know why you are feeling maybe you haven't been taken your medicine like you are supposed to. I have heard that all too much I wish to not hear it again. Maybe phrase it a different way. I don;t care. I wish to be happy again. I wish for my parents to love me like they used to. Back I when I was a wee little girl. Back before the abuse. Back before your life even began with them. Maybe you cant go back in time but you can hopefully get the help you need I don't know. Your parents used to love you before babies came in the picture. I love that little girl but sometimes i wonder what life would like without her. It would be completely different but in what ways. Would I be unhappy? Would I want to die? Would I be happy? Who knows only God truly knows what life would be like. Enlighten me ON the truth of God. Is he real? If so where is he when you really need Him? Where is he right now? May I be on my way now to hell? Who the hell knows? Good bye till late rhope to hear from you soon!