my father?!

so i met my father i look just like him as i expected. he has a little bit. i cant help but wonder how did he cope not knowing his daughter, he managed. he says he missed seeing me grow up. but he also knows that he gave me a much life by giving me up for adoption. he has no regrets at all. that makes me happy i guess. he also gave me a little insight on the adoption. he only had an eighth grade education and my mother also only an eighth grade education. He worked hard to keep the family together. his first two children were given up for adoption almost immediately after they were born. so he doesn't really claim them. then theres me and my little brother. hes in jail and my father doesnt really speak of him. i also had an older sister whom i am named after, but i got my named changed after i was adopted, she died when she was 3 in a house fire. my family is quiet complicated. i love it. i am also debating on if i should get to know my father. a part of me wants to but i dont want to get hurt. so i dont really know. i am struggling with this. i want to know him. we shall see where this goes for me.